Feeling blue today...

Hey..so I am feeling a little blue today. I started my day dwelling on a friendship lost, and it has really effected my whole day!

Poor kids..they really get the brunt of mommy's bad days :) I hate that though, I end up yelling when its so not necessary and "throwing fits" as much as them!

I also hate that I have let something so far beyond my control effect me so strongly, for so long. I feel like I am getting over it, when I read something, or hear someone talk about them and it all comes back. All the grief over having lost this person's friendship, regret over mistakes made, sadness at knowing that things will never be right really floods my spirit.

I am reading a book by Beth Moore, called "GET OUT OF THAT PIT!". Her thoughts are so profound, and so right on. She talks about when you look around and you realize that you have found yourself in a place of darkness, of hopelessness, of an overwhelming sense of gloom and despair ..even if it is just in one area. That is a pit.

This friendship, or lack of, certainly is that for me. I feel so overwhelmed at times with the knowledge that it is all beyond my control, that I can do nothing at this point to fix anything, that I have made mistakes that cannot be undone or that I may never be able to say that this is resolved.

So, I have had to pray for peace, once again.

And it leads to me wonder, does God, like even the best of best friends, ever get tired of hearing the same things over and over again?

Does He want to say GET OVER IT ALREADY! ..I would.

Thank goodness, that "His thoughts are higher than my thoughts, and his ways are higher than my ways..."